Okay ya’ll, so I just finished camming during the night ya’ll and I have to say… it’s interesting to say the least. It’s about 1 am est time right now.
Yesterday was my 13 year webcameraversary on webcamodels.com. I decided to stream on this day to celebrate my anniversary with this platform.
Boom, I look cute, finally dressed for the occasion and I get an invite to view a camera. Of course I’m thinking it’s a request to view a cam of a guy who is jerking off to me, which is my speciality and it wasn’t. It was a black guy (this "minor" detail is essential in this story, keep reading) who was fully dressed, smoking, drinking, and simply listening to old school music from the 70’s and 80’s. I immediately felt right at home, because I’ve been streaming almost everyday since my account with webcammodels.com has been revived and that’s the only music I’ve been playing. I’m thinking we’re going to vibe and treat this like some sort of episode of a TV show for adults like the good ole days, you know like the Robyn Byrd show? Vibing, drinking, smoking, laughing, and talking about sex, etc. I was totally game for something new. When I’m able, privates are always welcome. But this seemed different.
My agent is usually easily accessible to me for assistance whenever I’m streaming, but yesterday was also his birthday so of course he was out celebrating despite him encouraging me to allow him to linger around and monitor my stream; I insisted he take the night off, venture out, and celebrate. I just knew I could handle this on my own. WRONG!
The guy paid me to view his cam. He respected my tip list. I can totally appreciate that. But after a while, or should I say a couple of drinks later, he’s talking and expressing himself to me, including giving me his age, he was chatty no patty out this bitch. But he goes on to lightly complain about webcammodels.com, saying it’s one of the worst platforms he's been on out of many. I sat there with my huge glass of wine and listened. I was intrigued to find out what exactly he meant by that.
He goes on to say, he’s been in the web camming game since the late 80’s early 90’s. I thought, wow, this has been going on since the 80’s? That is interesting. He says, whenever he comes to webcammodels.com; he doesn’t have many favorites, in fact, he said he initially had just one favorite, and recently discovered another favorite, but now that he’s found me, he considers me to be a favorite too, and that’s very rare for him. His words. I caught myself feeling special because in this business, you want to be liked. Your money as a black performer no less, ultimately depends on how much your fans or potential fans will like you. If they can’t vibe with you, no matter what your niche is, they won’t come back. Now this doesn’t mean you have to take abuse as a black creator, it just means be personable, assertive, and witty. Know your worth and wear it with confidence. Your audience should feel your vibe and want to connect with you. Anyway, I sat there, continued to listen to him. I smiled, nodded my head, agreeing with his top picks, even though I had no idea of who he was talking about. He mentioned her name so much, I finally tuned in and saw she was actually streaming. I clicked on his number one fave to view her profile and fan her, she was of course a caucasian woman. I wasn’t surprised or disappointed. I have a lot of white fans and I absolutely love that. I am 1000% game for diversity. I’m here to simply point out the scarcity of appreciation for Ebony models. Let’s continue, shall we?
I clicked on his second fave to fan her also, she was a black model. I breathed a sigh of relief to see that she is in fact an Ebony model because I have not seen many Ebony models there. As an agent that is concerning to me because Ebony models deserve to have a platform to earn money and build fans on. Our presence or lack of further, is a red flag for more approvals on Ebony model applications. However, seeing the amount of Ebony models and fans alike last night, made me quite hopeful and I went on to vocalize the amount of Ebony models who were present and how proud I was to see them there. He agreed, other fans agreed.
He kept going with complimenting me, expressing his appreciation for my energy and my beauty. He called me a star, said “You have star vibes, you're different". He said he's seen many Ebony models on the platform and none of them look quite like me. I was flattered. I’ll admit it. But I couldn’t help but to equally feel disheartened that he would even say something like that on this platform; in this industry. I kept thinking, why can’t we all just be our own unique selves, express ourselves sexually, and be free with our sexual speech. The industry is going through enough as it is with the new laws and crack downs on how adults express themselves. I don’t hear white men talk like this about their counterparts.
I suddenly zoned out from his talking when I looked down at my viewed list, to see how many viewers were in my room, and I noticed the black model he mentioned was his second favorite (his words) was also viewing my cam while she too was streaming. I immediately began to feel like they were a team or something, it was getting a bit weird. He was lowkey acting like a pimp. Nevertheless, I still smiled, pretended like I wasn’t bothered by this, and continued to speak her own success in my head passing it over to the universe.
So now the black male fan who’s cam I’m still viewing, continues with voicing his grievances about models and services these days. He says: "models don’t understand that fans are giving them their hard earn money from their actual paychecks that they get from their jobs." He said he doesn’t like models demanding that they be taken to private for shows, demanding to be paid for tit flashes, and shaking their asses on public cam. He said the models are not appreciative of the tips anymore, all they care about are private shows and back in his day, that was how models were paid. With sheer tips that’s it, that’s all. I said to myself: wow, he is not happy with today’s innovation.
I found this to be interesting and I couldn’t understand why he was talking about this in my stream because:
- A. my topic said nothing about privates being welcome this time. I just wanted to celebrate; but I said self, don’t personalize his statement.
- B. without privates, models would never make any money. Especially the Ebony models. And then I got to thinking, is he talking about Ebony models? Then I shook it off and said, nahhh… Don’t think like that Diana, stop separating black and white models. You can earn just as much money, just like them. Just win fans over with your charm.
So in hindsight, he basically said, webcammodels.com is too structured in a way that accommodates and protects the models hosting there to ensure we are paid for our time and artistic acts. Now I’m becoming a bit irritated and uncomfortable. But I go on to listen. I didn’t want to boot him out of the cam, because I didn’t want him to retaliate. Such a shame that I have to think this way in order to feel like I am protecting myself and my account. I’m thinking.. Just take it until one of us logs off. Ugh!
It gets worse, he didn’t stop there, he further goes on to brag about other sites being better because the women are showing important parts of their body off for free and doing far more for free and he doesn’t have to spend his money. And I thought, but you’re still here tipping. Okay.
I want to point out one other site that is even more strict and 1000% exclusive to higher paying clients. That’s livejasmin. Livejasmin is one of my ultimate favorite platforms because they are the epitome of anti-freeloaders and johns who want a free show. They do not allow models to stream nude in public chat, let alone allow models to put on full free shows in public chat. Their site is one of high class and stature. They only want fans that can and love to spend. Livejasmin only lost me because they began requiring models to have their photos professionally taken, and I’m talking even the profile SFW photos. I checked out and closed my account. However, I understood their end goal, and I’m super happy to know they’re still going strong and thriving. If I ever get a photographer, I would definitely go back there. The vibe, structure, and pay was amazing. I was always guaranteed a private whenever I logged on too. Livejasmin is VERY Ebony model friendly.
Let’s move on… As he was talking I thought well if you think this site is bad, don’t go over to livejasmin.
He never took a breath, he went from complaining about webcammodels.com to giving me the 3rd degree, asking how long I’ve been a model on webcammodels.com. I replied with 13 years to the day, and he says he’s never seen me there. He was so lit, because he was basically calling me a liar about how long I’ve been there. I said, honey, you can go look on my profile, the fine print is there. Just because you haven’t seen me here, doesn’t mean I’ve never been here. I went away, life happens, and I took a break. He expressed understanding the circumstances, and then asked me if I was ever in the Ebony room on webcammodels.com. I said yes, I’ve been there. He didn’t believe me. He kept repeating that I have never been in that room. We did a bit of back and forth for a while before I changed the subject. I’ll admit, I have to take responsibility for allowing such fuckery to continue on my stream knowing I have potential customers wanting to pay me to come up and look at them cum for me.
But, I was curious to see if this would eventually turn into a drunken party where everyone could truly participate and have a good time. I thought don’t be such a stiff, Diana. People bicker and get back on track all the time. Just go with it, have a good time, and be free.
Another fan tipped me look at their cam. I immediately clicked his cam to be viewed next to the black guy.
Sidenote: on webcammodels.com, models and fans can view up to 4 cams in their streams. When I’m viewing cams, I tend to allow fans to remain on cam with me once they’ve paid me to view; until they turn their cameras off. The only time I turn their cameras off is when I’m being called into a private or I’m logging off all together. It’s a horrible practice, I know. My agent tells me all the time. He says don’t make them get too comfortable by keeping up with this practice. And he’s right. Because there are some who take advantage in a bad way. Like the guy I’m talking about in this post. For the record, I do it to be fair, so to have this clown come up to hi-jack and complain any way, when I and so many other Ebony models are pretty fair; is absolutely frustrating to no end. However, I take full responsibility and acknowledge my own fuckery in this shit show and not understanding how much I’m worth. I need to take a glimpse of my own advice and roll with it. I know I will have to change this way of thinking and shift it, because I’m pretty dope like so many other Ebony models.
The new guy who came on the second cam, looked like he was caucasian. Very handsome young man. We smiled at each other, sent heart signals, blew kisses to each other while the black guy was in his top corner of my screen still listening to music, drinking, and vibing in a world of his own.
Me and the cute caucasian guy are vibing, he slowly brings his camera down to his pants where I see his bulge. I go on to tease him. He starts taking his cock out, stroking it. My mouth is watering, tongue hanging out. All the while, my attention is in between the two guys. A practice I also do to make them equally feel important, while entertaining my viewers; but the black guy started seemingly getting belligerent. I go on to entertain the guy whipping his dick out and as I’m standing up to do a minor twerk for the white guy, the black guy says:
“I was gonna say you need to get up and do something for him. You can’t just be sitting there doing nothing. He paid you to view his cam.” - again I laughed it off, but now my teeth are gritting from being more irritated. The cost to view cams is .90 cents. Unlimited timing with me. This is the moment I should have banned his wanna be freeloading ass off my stream, but again, I wasn’t sure if he and the black model were together, so I kept it cool. But what I wanted to say to him was "I don’t have to get up and do a muthafuckin thing”. This muthafucka was truly giving pimp vibes. I said to myself oh no, I need him to go.
Now, another feature with webcammodels.com if no one else knows this, there is a public group chat that everyone in that room has access to. Models and fans alike. So if someone talks in the public group chat everyone sees it and can react to it. If someone sends a random tip or a tip from someone’s tip list, everyone sees that in the public group chat. We can’t see private show requests from fans, but we can see when someone either a model or fan, accepts a private session request. Keep this part in mind for the next batch of fuckery this muthafucka did while talking all that shit.
So now, at the point where he made that comment, I finally muted him. Still didn’t kick him off like a dumbass but I muted him. But here’s the kicker, the entire time he was talking, complaining, and being indignant, he was tipping quite a few white models for doing the very thing he was complaining about. Sitting there. Yes you’ve guessed it, sitting there, doing nothing. No performance for free. Every act they were requested to do, either involved them going into a private or being tipped for it. Even the slightest act. Make sense? No? You’re right, doesn’t quite make sense to me either. Let’s keep going with the story shall we?
Recap, when people get tipped there, members can either tip from the menu list, or a random amount with or without a note. He’s tipping these women to “smile”, other tip menus set by models with messages like “you’re so beautiful”, “I love you”, “Stand up” to name a few. And these aren’t low costing tip requests, these tip requests are high. So this loud mouth stream hi-jacker was tipping the white models heavy amounts. Now one may ask, how did I know they are white models? Webcammodels.com has it where members can create avatars. They also have default avatars, so if there’s a white couple, their avatar is of a white man and a white woman. If there’s a black member, their avatar is of a single black member. Same for a single white members.
After a while I got to thinking, I allowed this guy to hi-jack my entire stream on my 13 year webcamerversary. Eventually the white guy cut his cam off. As a matter of fact, he cut his cam off the moment that asshole made the comment about me getting up to do something. I don’t think that sat well with the younger guy. So this black dude totally hi-jacked my stream for the whole hour and a half I was there. I realized he was name dropping the white model the whole time, talking shit about the platform, badgering me about my experience and so on. My favorite was when he kept what felt like; trying to little girl me like I had no idea what I was doing or no idea about how this all works. While calling me a star and steady looking mesmerized by my sheer existence. Of course other fans stepped in to tip me and give me five star ratings. I love them all so much.
The black guy is continuing to try and talk to me, but I guess he hadn’t realized that I muted him so I couldn’t hear a word he was saying. He’s dancing, and he starts taking his clothes off to finally start stroking his meat. It was then, I finally decided to end my stream and kick everyone off. He had finally succeeded in turning me completely off.
Now... here are my actual thoughts on the matter. I’ve said this before and I’ll say it again. Fans have this alarming sense of entitlement with models, especially Ebony models. I sat there and listened to this guy talk about his distaste for models wanting to earn a living by putting themselves out there for everyone to see, while equally tipping caucasian models large amounts to do absolutely nothing special. I heard him talk about being able to see models for free on other platforms, while he was hyping up the caucasian models by tipping them and name dropping for the chat. The one black model he acknowledged aside from me, all she got were 5 star ratings. I don’t know how long she’d been streaming online that night, but the time I was there, I didn’t see anyone tipping her. He tipped mostly white women and me (so much for only having one favorite for a while. Seemed like he had quite a handful that night). For the record, I am grateful that he tipped me. It wasn’t much. But I know I “have” to be grateful for the little bit he did tip me. And I am. I truly am. But I am mad as hell at fans that continuously tell Ebony models to give it all away for free with the hopes of getting a large tip. I’ve seen Ebony models have a goal of just $50 dollars; fifty fucking dollars and only receiving 5 dollars after streaming online for many hours, twerking, engaging, hyping up a crowd, fucking a dildo with their pussy and ass, doing magic tricks with their cooch, squirting to entice a crowd and be liked, all for FREE in live public chat for NOTHING. Zero coins, nada, zilch. Just to be told they’re not allowed to ask for privates or tips? It’s…infuriating… How dare anyone think it’s okay to abuse Ebony models and shame us for wanting to make a living out of doing a hard ass job. This job is very hard and mentally taxing and we DON’T complain. We don’t beg for spare change, we can’t even talk about the mistreatment without certain people either getting offended and/or trying to compete with us about our struggle, let alone have the room to complain about it.. How the hell are you competing with the struggle of Ebony models never seeing thousands of dollars in their bank accounts for this line of work but YOU DO. No one should ever try to even compete with our struggle and what we deal with. We still ultimately outperform and deserve to be accommodated. No one should ever tell us to sell ourselves short. Ain’t no way in hell I’m spending hours upon hours online to earn NOTHING. If I can’t be respected and accommodated for what I’m already doing, which is dancing, engaging, looking at cams, talking, playing with my cooch, I shouldn’t be doing that for hours and receive nothing because some douchebag believes that I should be doing it for free. Anyone can feel how they want about this specific topic, but as long as it’s going to keep happening to us, I’m NOT going to stop addressing it. This freeloading behavior with Ebony models is worn and TIRED.
This IS a real job. This is art. You pay actors for the movies they play in right? You pay music artists for the music they’re producing right? Movies, shows, and music are all things we enjoy. Just so happens some people also enjoy porn and the people who perform sexual acts, whether with a partner, solo, in person, or virtually, it’s all still art, expression, and performance. IT SHOULD NOT BE FREE. Teasers are free. Short ordinary trailer videos for movies and shows to entice fans are free. Actors get paid an appearance fee to interact with fans don’t they? Singers and performers get paid to perform at a concert right? And no one has a muthafuckin problem with paying for it even if there are no refunds and the artist either SUCKED on stage, didn’t show up, or canceled. No one says a word, all crickets. So all of a sudden there’s smoke for the people who ask to be paid to help you cum? To watch you, engage with you, take orders from you, listen and read your twisted fantasies and kinky fetishes - you’re still riding on that service being for free? There’s a problem with Ebony women or any woman for that matter, asking to be taken into private shows so that they can give you their full attention? Because I’ll be clear, he never mentioned which models were “demanding” - (and I put that in parenthesis because he already gave attention seeking vibes) private shows. I made the safe assumption that he was indeed complaining about Ebony models because he was legit tipping the caucasian models for everyone to see. It was truly a slap in the face.
Let’s be clear here, work is work. Some people like working vanilla jobs. Other’s like to be an artist, doesn’t fucking matter how that looks. It’s someone’s energy, their vibes, and their emotional passion that they are putting into taking the time to entertain your wannabe freeloading clown ass. So get with the program and stop being so fucking cheap and entitled. Pay the artist like you would pay any other artist.
And I really fucking wish platforms would stop giving these assholes all this free space to make statements like that. Nevertheless, if you’re on a platform that requires you to pay the model, obviously you want the attention of that specific model and you definitely should pay them for their time and energy. Especially if they’re black and doing magic tricks to go above and beyond, providing you a great ass show. Pay them! End. Of. Story.
Now back to my regularly scheduled fucking programming. I logged back on two hours later, and it was all good vibes again. I really enjoyed it after that asshole left. Stay tuned for more stories to share.
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