The Level or Need to Study, Needs to be Studied; Let me Explain

Here's the tea.... 

 

Lately, I've been streaming just about everyday. I love to stream whenever I'm taking a break from phone calls or one on one calls and admin work. Sometimes I get too invested in even coding these days, so I try to take those breaks and stream for the hell of it. 

It's an extra coin and I get to connect with my fans. Let them know I'm still around and thinking of them. I will even so much as go online when the red devil has entered the chat. I just usually advise my fans not to take me into a private show.  I make it very clear I'm there to vibe and if they want me to watch their cam they are free to invite me to view their cam from my tip-list. 

Last night was like any other night. This happen to be a night when aunt flow was mingling around and I was merely online to take a break from all the marketing I'd spent my day doing.

Well honey, let me tell you; I'd just logged the fuck on, hadn't even turned on my camera yet and a frequent visitor was asking me for a private show. LOL! I love it, let's be clear, I love the attention, I also like to curse, so my above statement is merely a term of endearment. I'm never ever going to complain about people loving me. Ever.  

I tell him that I'm not able to go private but he's more than welcome to invite me to view his cam. He was very persistent so I finally told him why I couldn't take privates. This sexy mofo said he did not care. 😮 In my mind, I'm like don't threaten me with a good time now. I'm really freaky like that, especially for the coin. Sheiiiiiiiiiittt!! 

I turn my camera on, and like flies on shit, everybody started coming in. I. Fucking. Love. It. Everyone on my stream is vibing, talking, and flirting. I pop my boobs out and tease them. I'm getting 5 star ratings, love those. A few tips. Now let's recap; on webcammodels, 5 star ratings, tips, and private request acceptance can be seen in the public chat. That means all models and fans can see the activity. And once someone rates a model or a fan, if you're a model, the fans come and join your live to check you out. Models can come to check you out too but they usually don't; at least not with me unless they are, what? Studying me. 

What I have consistently noticed on this site however, is that a lot of the white models support each other and only black women that they don't feel is a threat to them. Take that as you will, but I live this shit everyday. I've done my homework. I'm a Leo, so I'm already a vibe reader; and 9 times out of 10; if the vibe gives shady, then that's exactly what it is. So I'm always watching, listening, reading, observing the room and energy. I know enough to know who's for me and who isn't. 

Fan who initially wanted me to do a private; sure did end up paying me for a private. I can guarantee the private didn't get too crazy. I'll detail that on the next page 😘. Once the private was over, at this point, I'm completely comfortable with logging off for the night because I made some money so it wasn't necessary for me to get too carried away in case someone else came around for a private request. But instead I stayed. 

Like clock work fans came back into my stream. Lot's of them. We go back to vibing and flirting. I get a few invites to view cams. I peeped a few white female models checking out my live. They'd pop in and out. But two popped in and stayed. How interesting. I thought. I wonder what they're doing here. It's such a shame that; that's my first thought instead of just receiving any possible support. I continued to entertain, as if I hadn't realized they were there. I wasn't about to acknowledge their presence. That site is a cesspool for bullies and wannabe intimidators. As lucrative as it can potentially be, that is the stone cold truth. I've experienced it. 

One (out of the two watching me) model; gave me a 5 star rating. I gave her a shout out, returned the favor with a 5 star rating. Blew her a kiss. She said nothing. Just continued to watch me, while she, herself was streaming. 😂

I move on to entertain my fans. I get tipped to do an act, I go on to prep for the act. I make a note to myself that this said model, who is watching me, is being given several 5 star ratings all across the board, and several tips just for existing. Now, I have to make a note of it. There's a reason for this, I swear. I paid it, I paid the attention for her in the public chat, I paid her interesting obvious kink in watching me. I said self, be optimistic. She's here to show you some support. Don't start this shit about envy and racism. No. Don't do it. I start performing my act, I'm getting tipped for my act - let's be clear here, while grateful for my pennies and winglet bones, it wasn't nearly as much as she was getting tipped, okay? One thing about Black women, we will not complain, remember, we're not "allowed" to.

Anyway... She's still in my stream. She starts rating the guys who are tipping me. The first thing I thought was, is she trying to get them to tip her too? I immediately stopped myself and said, don't think that. She's probably showing love to them because they are showing love to you and our community as virtual performers. 

I started my little Tina Turner seance nom yo ho ray gay cure, preventing my eye from twitching (thank goodness my camera wasn't focused on my face because baabbyy...we Leo's cannot hide our facial expressions). More fans are coming in while I am in the middle of my act, and I allow myself to simply enjoy and climax. Next thing I knew, I'm right at the top as the most viewed model, either next to her or above her. She's still watching. 

I climax. Made. A. Mess. Just what my tippers and my audience wanted. Guys start giving me a 5 star rating. I go in to rate them a 5 star right back! 

SN: Anyone who rates me a 5 star rating, tips, sends me a cam view request, or even engages with me during my live, will get a 5 star rating from me as a sign of appreciation. 

Guess what? After I sent those same fans who gave me a 5 star; a 5 star right back; this same lurking ass model started rating my fans 5 stars. Not one of them were checking for her. In fact, one of my very loyal fans sent me a 5 star rating, I can almost guarantee he was not watching her, he is literally always all over me, love him for it AYE!!! Every time he comes into my stream, he gives me a 5 star rating. Every 👏 Single 👏Time👏 and I rate him right the fuck back. Yasssss.... Anyway... moving on, after he rated me a 5 star, she rated him and said hi in the public chat. And girl... I love him down, he paid her. Never responded. 😂 Her actions very much gave, she was trying to mirror me and get them over to her. It was so strange. Remember, I'm an energy and vibe reader. Her energy wasn't feeling right. Especially since a model the night prior gave me a real taste of what support looks like, okay? And she was a Black lady. We'll definitely highlight that in another post. 

Here's where this unattractive basic ass wannabe great, rich bitch put the nail in her own coffin with me and now I've got four eyes on this bitch - it's giving soon to be blockiana after my observation and research. One of my fans came into my private group chat and messaged me. I verbally responded and gave him a shout out - while I'm in the middle of rubbing my petite rack. I said something along the lines of  "OMG, hey 'john'" (totally a made up name for the privacy of my fan) - "it's so good to see you again boo! I missed you!" I blew him a kiss into the camera and gave him a 5 star rating. Do you know what this basic trash box did? She typed some of my same words with enthusiasm (just as my voice was!) in the public chat to this dude, and gave him a 5 star rating right after I did that. I said okay, it's official. This bitch is studying me right now. The kicker? He too, paid her pure dust. I am totally in love with the loyalty. Thank you Universe, and thank you to my loyal fans. Fucking love you down.

Now, one might ask, why is my title "The Level or Need to Study, Needs to be Studied; Let me Explain" - And I will say this with the most genuine intentions that I could possibly muster in my body and bones because baaaabyyy... I am ever so grateful for the love I receive as a creator. I get nickels and I do not complain, I make it work and I always show gratitude. But my level of confusion is one for the books. This basic ass bitch stayed on my live for all of 30 to 45 minutes (she only left because she was forced to, the system disconnected me and kicked me off, therefore all of my viewers were kicked off of my stream) watching my every move and studying me, for??? Girl, you are getting paid to be bland and do nothing simply because you are white and so yes, in all actuality you are indeed desired. Women like me could never understand nor do we want to. We just want to mind our damn business and build our own connections, but you ma'am, simply cannot help yourself. Here you are collecting your coins for being ever so unseasoned and talentless, so what on earth are you watching me for? It can't be because you think you'll be learning something from me. From the amount of financial love you were getting, for doing more than likely the opposite of me; is proof that you've got this in the bag. Literally and figuratively. Could it be that you can't stand to see a Black woman dominate the views even though you've got all the money and views? You have to have it all, don't you? You can't stand to see your men desire me and so many women who look like me? Do I threaten you, girl? Am I shaking your table too, girl? 

Look ya'll, I saw this post on social media literally earlier in the day yesterday, and it was a post with a white lady explaining, why white people do not like for Black people to have even a quarter of what they already have a lot of. They cannot stand our swag. We literally get a quarter of their earnings, and somehow they still manage to be upset, because they cannot stand our natural swag. She said this, and so they will go all out of their way to sabotage us in every way (her words!) 

And so here are my words; like clock work, the sex industry is no fucking different. This model was watching me, and trying to get my fans over to her, it gave she was totally envious of my natural swag and ability to genuinely entertain and receive love. 

To my Black women, make your money and shine. Man, fuck these hoes. Stand out and win your audience over. And DO NOT limit yourself. Explore your options and make the platforms that appreciate you and pay you the most; your priority! Period! 

 

Ya’ll I was crashing out

Picture it, I'm at home, editing my videos to post on xxxfollow.com and it suddenly dawned on me once again, that I no longer have my special loved one. Though I feel his presence spiritually and I can certainly appreciate that, some times, it still hurts to not have him in real time. It's a hole in my heart that simply won't recover. 

So, I'm crying, I'm talking sobbing, uncontrollably, and talking with my friend about how sensitive I feel about this situation and I go on to explain to her how much I truly do enjoy being an adult performer because this line of work takes me away from the sad moments like this. I'm thinking to myself pull yourself together girl.

My nose is all stuffy and I'm blowing to relieve it when suddenly, my phone began to ring on Sextpanther. I was startled. I hadn't realized my phone call status was still on. I quickly blew my nose and sniffled a bit to try and sound normal. 

I connected the phone call and it was my regular fan who randomly called me. It was as if he knew I was sad and decided to call me in that moment. Our call made me instantly get it together and get into character.  It was everything I needed in that time because I was kept busy, I was concentrating on fulfilling a fantasy, and I was making some money. Good money, he's a big spender. 

When we were done with our call, I didn't feel the need to start crying again. The sadness had passed. My phone call literally reminded me of why I started back up with doing this again and going full time at that. It was to remind me of how much I enjoy this and how much I am loved. My homegirl asked me what I got out of this just before I had my phone call. I answered her after my phone call and said "I was literally crashing out on the phone with you. I just had a phone call and now I feel better. I get my entire life out of this. That is what I get. I get reminded that I am still alive and I need to live." With that, she said, "I heard that!" - and we both laughed. 

Why Promotion Is So Important

I often see models questioning and chatting about how much traffic a site (or potential site) has - and it's usually on forum sites or social media. It's almost like they cannot fathom being apart of a site that doesn't generate enough traffic for them to get hits. The truth is, it doesn't matter how much traffic a site has or doesn't have. Even if a site had tons of traffic, the site cannot guarantee fans engagement. When you think about it, fans don’t have to engage. Sometimes they do, sometimes they don’t, and I’m speaking from every platform I’ve been on, including mine. Fans can log in, browse, lurk, and then log off. If they decide to engage then they will. If they don’t want to engage, then they won’t. I’ve had instances where new fans came and saved me as a favorite, but didn’t text me. Even if I texted them first, thanking them for saving me as a favorite. It’s the rule of the game. Do I let their lack of response upset me and discourage me? No. I keep moving, maybe give them a week or two, before I send another message checking in with them, but also making it more inviting than the last one.

As an Ebony model, if I want to see higher results on any of my profiles regardless of how popular the site is, I must promote myself.  

Taking a trip down memory lane; I’ve talked about my own experiences with promotion. And I was on platforms like MFC, LiveJasmin, Talk To Me, Niteflirt, SextPanther, Streammates, ImLive, and most recently Chaturbate and Bongacams. Those are some pretty high traffic sites.  But once I walked into MFC and made the mistake of thinking I was going to be an instant hit for my mere existence, the results or lack thereof; painfully dawned on me and reminded me that I need to do more. I quickly changed my way of thinking. 

It is very important to understand that without promotion, not enough fans will know what type of services you offer. It is even more important for you as an Ebony model to help get some exposure to your profiles. There is a place for us, and though not out loud, the demand for us is secretly growing. You want to target your specific audience and help them find you without having to sift through a website to finally see you on like page 6. So, if you want to heighten your chance of making larger sums of money and gaining more popularity, it’s important to promote the platforms you’re on. If you don’t have time to promote, or if you don’t necessarily know where to start, you can hire someone from freelancers.xxx. 

No matter how big you get, promotion should never stop. I have fans on all platforms, and while I appreciate them, I’m never too big or too popular to keep promoting myself and gaining new fans. Just the other day, I promoted myself and gained a solid 20 fans on SextPanther alone. I have many contacts on each platform that I utilize the most. I connect with them regularly. Sometimes they’re online and I speak to them more than once a day/week, but if I want more exposure and money I know that I need to open the door to receiving more fans. 

Even if you’re new and shy and don’t want to put yourself out there you must promote yourself. Some of you may even say, well I’m not a content creator, or I want my identity hidden in this line of work. And that’s okay. You can totally promote your alter ego without actually putting up photos and videos. 

Like anything else, this industry is changing. What was once hot or trending, isn’t anymore. The demand for engagement is higher. Am I saying you need to burn yourself out promoting? No! Absolutely not! But you need to build your audience to increase your potential earnings. I’ve said this in a previous post; when I promoted my links and businesses, fans came in, and they came in hot! I saw the results and it was phenomenal. These days, I could say I don’t need to promote myself, but I simply don’t feel that way. I feel like I always need to promote myself and my services. There is always someone out there who is looking for a person like me, who can provide what the virtual fantasy they are looking for. 

So if you’re wanting to get exposure and increase your earnings, promote, promote, promote! If you’re in the phone sex and webcamming business and your resources seem to be limited, start with PSO Finder. PSO Finder is a free forum site where you can add your links. AdultPC is a free classified ad site made for adults in the adult performance industry. Adding your listing there is also free. 

Know of other sites to promote virtual adult premium services? Please feel free to share in the comments. 😘

Is OnlyFans for Me?

I’ve had OnlyFans since 2020 I want to say. And I'm used to promoting myself and products on my own, through and through. But I must say, OnlyFans was and still is totally boring for someone like me.  No shade.

What do I mean by someone like me? Well, although I’ve been in the adult entertainment world for many years, somehow I still don’t consider myself to be a content creator if you will. I consider myself to be a virtual flirt, a talker, slight entertainer, an occasional solo freak who likes to touch herself when she’s in the mood and be paid for it. Producing constant content and posting it, always trying to come up with something new and fresh every single time sounds exhausting at the mere thought. And people outside of this industry tend to be rather disrespectful to the work that actually does have to be put into content creating. Content creation, no matter the niche; is work. It takes hours and a hell of a lot of effort.

Now I get it, there may be a handful of models who have an entire team guiding them through every process and I’m here for it. By all means do you boo boo. Me personally, I’m not very trusting so I work solo all around. I am responsible for everything that happens with my work. But we won’t ramble about that right now. 

I initially signed for OnlyFans because of all the hype. I’m aware that OF was started for famous people to connect more with their audience and then somehow it got morphed into ordinary people signing up and poof, shit hit the fan. I’ll admit, once again I got sucked into what successful white folks were saying about how much they were earning on OnlyFans as solo creators, and I don’t know why my stupid ass didn’t catch on. Perhaps it was the hippy spirit in me. 

So anyway I completely understood the concept of OnlyFans and how it started. I do know that creators get what is it? 80% payout? And the catch is that creators must promote themselves. I will absolutely acknowledge that. But I also understand what this still means as a Black entertainer, and so I want to stick to options that are less likely to require so much work out of me. You may be thinking, what the fuck does that mean? It means that as a regular person who dipped my foot into the entertainment content creation world by joining OF; I don’t want to work too hard ultimately burning myself out by trying to build a following on OnlyFans for fans to still come in and feel entitled to me and everything about me for free when I’m on platforms that are more structured for the sole purpose of exercising my right to what I know I deserve. And while that should go without explanation, I’ll say it anyway. I deserve to have a private following that adores and appreciates me and my energy enough to want to pay me without a second thought or hesitation. Pay me to keep them virtual company and create specific content for their own wants and needs as it pertains to their love for me as a person and as an Ebony MILF model.

Now, OnlyFans is more of a free-ball platform where practically anyone can apply, and that much I can definitely appreciate because I’ve seen other platforms that do not allow men, transwomen, black women, and transmen to join - and that fucking sucks. 

I’ve heard of models making a shit ton of money on OF, there is actually a documentary out about OF where models express how they started and how much money they’ve made. But yet again, I’ve never seen one Ebony creator who ISN’T famous say they’ve made thousands of dollars on OnlyFans. I’ve publicly asked on social media platforms. My questions were ignored. So hopefully this post will bring them to the yard to enlighten me with results. No shade, but this bitch (me) is legit asking. 

I already wasn't very active on OnlyFans from the start. I do understand the hype in pay but as a person who doesn’t consider themselves a content creator, I knew OnlyFans was never going to work for me. 

I did however, get followers. Almost instantly. I did put up content with a free subscription and a few xxx material for PPV. I chose this way to do things because I was not consistent with my content. So, to me it made no sense to make subscribers pay for a monthly subscription if I wasn’t going to constantly put up content for them, or talk with them daily. Well, unfortunately, even with the free subscription, they did not pay for my PPV content. They subscribed but did not pay. I eventually moved on to a minor monthly fee. I legitimately wanted to give OnlyFans a fair shot to see if I could get used to it and grow with it. I had a couple of paid subscribers for about a month - God bless those guys. I put up more content just because they subscribed, but I still wasn’t as active as I should have been and I began to feel bad about having a paid subscription set up. I even put up a poll to get the opinion of my subscribers, sort of like find out what they prefer, free subscription with PPV content, or a small subscription fee, with free content. They voted for option 1. 

I finally gave up on OF and decided I wasn’t going to put up any more of my “content” on that platform. I instead continued to post my content to Manyvids.  

I did not delete my OnlyFans though. Here we are in 2026 and I still have it. I have since added more content for PPV. Til this day I offer a free subscription because I am still not consistent with my content. Not even on ManyVids now - a lot of my content sold on the MV platform is old. 

But, in 2026 I have made more money in this year on OF than I ever have before. I made a solid $80.00 on that site from a loyal fan who enjoys buying my soaked panty videos and occasionally chatting with me. 

At this point, I cannot blame my lack of success on the platform based on my race. I can honestly hold myself accountable and say I did not go as hard for OnlyFans with content and promotion as I would say SP, or LP. Now I can appreciate and use OnlyFans to promote other platforms that I’m on. I am so grateful that they allow that. Most platforms will straight up tell you to get the fuck out of here with that promoting other platforms shit. 

For Black creators, I will say if OnlyFans is for you, try to go as hard as you can to promote your content - if you’re serious about it, don’t be like me; be consistent. My personal opinion though, don’t give too much of yourselves for free. The audience expects that from us way too much as it is. I go on my X account and I’m seeing all these free teasers for OnlyFans, but it’s so graphic that there’s no need to subscribe and pay, because 9 times out of 10, the people watching it; are watching it in loop and that’s enough to make them explode. And please do, correct me if I’m wrong. Again, if you are a Black creator and you’ve made a shit ton of money on OF, please enlighten me. I am genuinely curious. How much did you make? What did you have to do to make that amount of money? I’m talking what type of acts did you have to do, how far did you have to go if you’ve had to go that far at all? If you haven’t had to go that far, what exactly did you do? How did you sprinkle your vibe to compel your audience to pay your worth? What promotional tools have you used? Did your promotional efforts work? Like did posting graphic features on X work for you? I’m not trying to give you the 3rd degree, I am, however, very curious and would like some insight. If you don’t care to share your experience for my own curiosity, would you at least consider sharing so that it can help the next Black content creator who’s serious about making money on OF? In life, we are meant to share resources, because there is enough to go around. Too often people hoard information because they are afraid it will tap into their funds when that is simply not the case. When you open your mind and spirit to genuinely be helpful to your peers, you not only still win, but you earn more. Because you paid it forward. So to my Black creators who are not famous and are successful, please share with us how you did it. Disclaimer: no shade, my question unfortunately, does not pertain to mixed Black creators. You are beautiful in your own way, you are loved through and through. However, I’ve seen mixed creators distance themselves from any lack of success on any platform and admit that they are held at a higher standard because they are lighter than the average Black creator and so they do make significantly more without having to try so hard. So I love you down, but I need other Black creators both men and women to come in the chat and share their stories. 

Now, if you are a content creator and you absolutely feel like you have to give some detail for a bit to entice your fans to purchase your content; then I would suggest leaving your extended teaser up for roughly 24 hours, be sure to tell them where to go to get your material in your post description, and then take it down. Now if they download it within that timeframe, or screen record, I can’t help you. I wouldn’t know the first thing of what else to do after that because once your shit is online, that’s a wrap despite all these bogus laws they have out now pretending they care about our well-being and our little people community. 

What I can guarantee you is, if they like what they see the first time, even if you took it down 24 hours later and they downloaded it, they will be back for more; only the next time, they will seek you and click on where to find you. Here’s the thing, potential fans can only watch that shit for so long before they’re wondering if you’re doing anything new. 

Overall I would say, OnlyFans is merely a promotional tool for me, for now (right, had it for over 6 years, it’s beyond “for now” at this point. With that said, there’s no real money potential in it for ME! Maybe I need a team, I don’t know, but we will see. Circumstances can and do always change. 

He Fucked Around and Found Out

Now today, I was totally tired and did not have the energy to stream online on webcammodels.com. It’s my birthday weekend (shoutout to Leos - had a couple of fans who are Leos on there today) and it has been quite tiring and challenging, so I was planning to take at least today off. Last night I cashed out and I was feeling myself. 

But somehow I had the urge to just sign on and watch the chats. I wanted to see what the temperature was looking like. I thought… maybe if I have a drink the tiredness would go away and I’d have the energy to go live. 

Instantly, I started getting private messages on the side of my screen. One of my regulars talked about how much he missed me. Making me feel all special and shit. I told him I wasn’t going to stream tonight because I was just too tired. He said he understood and we continued to just chat. 

Suddenly, a new person comes into the private side chat, requesting that I look at his camera and offering to pay me. He wanted me to watch him and instruct him on what to do. He said I didn’t have to turn my cam. I thought fair enough. I can do that. 

I agreed to watch his cam for a fee. Or so I thought. I accepted his verbal request and he tells me to go into another room. The party room. I thought oh how interesting that he would ask me to go there. And then I thought… wait… why would he ask that I go there instead. Like what is the significance in that? Anyway, I go over the party room, he’s there, and now he wants to negotiate how he’s going to pay me to look at his cam. I’m like oh boy here we go. Meanwhile, whole time, I’m thinking he can easily view my tip list and pay me to look at his cam from my tip list. It’s literally that simple, but okay. 

He said something to the effect of; “you watch me, and I only pay when you get naked, fair enough?” I said “I don’t understand what you’re saying, are you saying you’ll only pay me if or when I get naked?” I couldn’t wait for him to respond because this conversation was already feeling like a freeloading waste of time, so I instantly send another chat message saying “I have a tip list you can take a look at with viewing cams on it.” - something along those lines. He asks me how much, I tell him. He basically goes on to ask if there’s a limit, I say no. So he pays me to view his cam. 

I’m looking at his cam, instructing him, per his requests, only writing in the chat. After a while he was no closer to cumming. He goes on to ask me to hop on cam so he can see me and have me talk to him about cumming. I stalled for a while. Trying to come up with a plan on how to get him to pay me to come on cam. My brain was completely fried. So after he begged me again, I finally decided to hop on cam and show my tits. No face. That’s one of the wonderful perks about webcammodels.com, models and fans do not have to show their faces. 

I had my tits up on the screen. Suddenly, viewers started popping in. Lots of them. I’m talking, more in one minute than in one hour while in the over 40 room. Those old bats in the over 40 room be fightin’ for their lives in there. No shade, all tea. I’ll be posting more about that experience shortly. The guy who initially wanted me to view his cam, instantly regretted asking me to turn my cam on. Why might you ask? Because now my attention was no longer on him. That’s the thing about viewers, somehow they want to feel special without initiating a private. 

People were coming into my stream and watching, complimenting me. He didn’t like that too much. It was so much going on at that point he sends me a message saying “okay baby, I saw you, you can turn your cam off now” I said “but now baby you don’t understand, you asked me to come on and now that I’m here, I can’t just leave.” I typed that in the chat. My stream was muted because I had been listening to music pretty loud - let’s also remember that I was tired and had no intention of going live. 

But it was clear at this point that he’d fucked around and found out. He kept trying to tell me to turn my camera off, meanwhile, my viewer list is growing. Fast. Next, someone tipped me from my tip list to perform an act. Oh it’s up, now I thought. 

Main client is still up with his camera on. He stopped jacking off, clearly he’s looking at the chat and seeing how lit it can get. From his aura I could tell, instant regret. He takes a chance and still asks me to turn my cam off. Goes on to say he wants me to just focus on him. I thought "well sir, you should have just taken me into private. For goodness sakes that’s the whole purpose". Here I was worried about how I was going to get him to pay me to show myself on cam for him, couldn’t figure it out, so I went on anyway and it turned out great in my favor. 

Now I’m getting tip after tip; to do acts and just because 💕. Let me just say. That shit is awesome as hell!!!!!!! They love my energy, ayeeeeee… And side-note, I have to say, the party room was better. No one was hating on me and trying to steal my shine; and if they did, I honestly didn’t notice. It was literally so lit. Main client is in between beatin' his meat and gawking. He simply can’t believe the chaos he’s created for the sake of his own entitlement and greed. I’m sorry, but there wasn’t any other way I could express that part. He’s still asking me to turn my cam off and just solely focus on him. All while I am being tipped. 😕 I was genuinely confused. For him to think I would turn my cam off at this point was giving de-lu-lu. Like sir, no shade, you paid me this one fee to view your cam and we’ve been on for a while. The fee was hella little too! You’d 1000% gag if I exposed how much I charge to view cams. The upside to that is when I went live, that fee for cam view request was paid x amount of times more; once I went live. Aye! I’m like yea; nah, I’m not ending my live for this one dude who paid me once. 

Time goes by, he’s still up and he finally decided he had no choice but to know his place in my live. He literally fucked around and found out who I am exactly. He sat back and waited for me to please each person that was tipping me. And I’m so cunning. I said to him as I was playing with my puss, “you see what you did? I wasn’t trying to come online but you couldn’t resist and now here we are.” - Whoa, for what was that more tips starting coming in. Just because I said that. 

So to wrap this up, he was the last to cum in the first round of flirts. He literally started to understand that I’m magnetic. No shade. If I say I’m not going live there’s a reason for that. But if you insist on it then okay bitch here you go. Now all the attention has left you and entered into the public area for everyone. All in all, it turned out to be a great night. I earned quite a bit of coins for being online for just under an hour. Especially as an Ebony model. I know we are celebrated behind closed doors mostly. So to be celebrated in public is a beautiful milestone for me. And so no; I won’t be turning off my camera to turn my attention to someone who has paid me that tiny flat cam fee and hasn’t shown any more appreciation after that. 

Thank you so much to all the viewers and tippers who came on my live to show me love and appreciation. For my birthday, my energy, my talents, and just because. I love you to the moon and back. And I am always so glad to have you. 😘

Introduction - Hi, I’m DD

Hello, hello! It’s so nice to see you here. Welcome to my introduction. I just realized I’ve had a blog for years and never made an intro post, so that’s quite odd but here it is now. 

This is where you will find information, tips, including setting your boundaries unapologetically, and most importantly my experience as an Ebony virtual sex worker. If you haven’t come across them already and read them, here is a bit of what to expect with my words. 

1. I am very transparent. Lately, I hold nothing back. I had finally reached my breaking point of truth. I figured why would or should I hold back and leave the facts out? A lot of companies and people who actually make money off of us, will paint this delusional picture that it’s easy and that’s simply not true. Especially as an Ebony performer. I remember there was a self proclaimed SW “teacher” who was teaching lies and calling it a class. She was charging hundreds of dollars per class. She was aggressive and mean spirited. Almost like a bully. I’ll admit, I sat there thinking to myself, why on earth would she make these people pay her to lie to them? No shade, all tea. I don’t know why, but I was genuinely confused with her demeanor. In the beginning, I tried to sympathize with the fact that she too was an Ebony performer and her demeanor wasn’t anger but rather passion. Like almost trying to rationalize with she’s not angry she just wants to see us win. She too, was one who was painting it out to be so easy and claiming to have the secrets to success in this industry; and the only way to have access to it was through her classes. 

After a while of listening to her sales pitch incorporated into her bullying antics, the fear of missing out took over my body and I began to feel bad for not taking her classes. I began to think it was me and I was at fault for not making as much as she said we could make. I thought I was missing something, or doing something wrong. Perhaps I'd missed a step. Was it my aura? Or maybe it was because I wasn’t spending hours upon hours online. Am I not as invested as I probably should be? Am I doing this all wrong? I thought.

Although I was in the game longer than her, what she was advertising just didn’t seem like my personal experience. She flat out claimed to be making thousands of dollars a week. And the kicker is, I started to feel like perhaps I could learn something new from her since she’d been so successful, and so I almost broke my bank to buy one of her classes like a dumbass. My gut instantly stopped me and I said self, trust me. Sit this one out. She’s not saying anything you haven’t already found in a Google search. Come to find out, she was indeed, a fraud. She was busted by one of her students as a scammer. Someone literally left a review saying she’s telling people stuff they can do a Google search for, there’s no trick or different way to make money in this industry. So my intuition was correct. But I still couldn’t figure out why she would lie to folks; and then it dawned on me, she was marketing her services to secure her own bag. Deceiving people wasn’t a concern of hers. That’s marketing 101! I have no idea why I hadn’t thought of that before; I had a career as a marketing rep for crying out loud. Anyway…. onward to point 2!

2. I’m very helpful. To my own detriment some times, I can be too helpful and available; and that at times can allow people to have idea that I owe them my time and knowledge. But here is where I can’t stop being me and I’ll always try to be as helpful as I possibly can. Not always available, but helpful.  I’m not the universe, so I may not have all the answers, but I’ll find out, and I’m always open to have a community of my peers come and share their knowledge, experience, and helpful information of their own. Honestly, I’m sick and tired of doing it all on my own.

3. I am very blunt. I’m from NYC; born and raised, so being blunt is already instilled in me from my upbringing. But, being a Leo, Pescatarian makes it worse. I will at times, unintentionally be as blunt as I want to be and not give two flying fucks about it. It’s life and if someone doesn’t want to hear or see the truth, get the fuck up off my blog. Simple.

This truth and journey is not for the weak or the competitive. Readers and listeners should know, I have a private life outside of here, that I intend to keep that way. I have my stage name to build this persona if you will; to keep my work separate from my rather boring life for lack of better words. 

Kidding; but when I’m working I do feel more alive, and that’s no lie. While there may be some posts where I’ll touch a bit on my personal life, the overall goal here is to be as authentic as a performer and person as possible. The truth is, adult performers do have a separate life outside of their work and it should be that way. We are entitled to our privacy and our lives, and when we are working; it is just that. Work. Though fun work for some of us, it’s still work. And if you’re anything like me, it’s just work that we actually enjoy doing for once. While all readers and listeners are welcome, this is specifically for Ebony models who are either in the game already and seeking ways to improve, or thinking of getting into this and could use some guidance.

Without going on yet another rant, I want to point out that yes, things are different for us as Ebony models. I’ve experienced it, I’ve witnessed it, and I’m here to express that. Perhaps a bit more, and certainly nothing less. My writing and this blog is not meant to offend others, or discredit the experience of others, so before anyone comes here and tries to compete or make it about them, please do yourself a favor and find someone else to play with. As a Black woman, it is rather insulting to have others try to come and hi-jack our experience in everything we do, creatively and make it about them. Further adding insult to injury by gaslighting and deflecting our experience of lack of appreciation and credit for the hard work we put into our craft. We are not equally compensated and as virtual sex workers,  and yet I’ve never heard anyone complain or explain. I’m here to change that and highlight everything…. Let me say that again… everything. And while my intention was never to make this about race, again; I’ve had this blog for many years and I have written about the good, the bad, the ugly, and the indifferent. I’ve revamped my blog several times to help find my purpose in this. I struggled with deciding how much to write about. Should I spill all the tea and leave nothing out, or keep it cute and pretend like everything is berries and cherries? I thought. I couldn’t figure out if I wanted to be 1000% transparent or keep it cute and leave some things out to paint the industry to be truly straight forward with instant high levels of money and success. And then I thought perhaps I should wait until I make it big and lie about my success to the top completely ignoring the hardships it took me to get there. Here we are 14 years later, I’m no closer to the top and I’m still seeing some of my most top performing fellow Ebony PSO and camgirls working for 5 cents. I realized, my silence in all of this is not helping anyone. The truth is, it’s not easy. At all. They’re all lying to you to get you signed up for an emotional rollercoaster. And it’s a weird ass flex, because the average person who doesn’t see success within the first week, is quitting, so in hindsight it’s really not helping the platform or the referral person who signed them up but, okay. The cold hard truth is, this industry is not instantly lucrative and it is emotionally as well as mentally taxing.

Throughout this blog and my career as a virtual sex worker, I’ve always done my best to look at the brighter side and see things beyond the obvious while still inadvertently pointing out the obvious, because somehow the obvious still finds its way to me, thus making me feel compelled to now talk about it. Boy, was that a tongue twister. Whew! Needless to say, now is the time to talk about it and so I will. In accepting the truth as an Ebony creator, perhaps this will help so many other Ebony models succeed in their own way. 

Now to the good stuff. I’ve been in the virtual adult industry for 14 years. I started out selling sex toys and quickly moved on to phone sex. All while I was still employed at my 9-5 marketing job. I wanted it all. I’ll admit. I can’t remember for the life of me, which phone sex company I started with outside of Niteflirt. But I do remember taking calls while I was at work. I'd just excused myself and go to the bathroom. Anyway, here’s where it really became a serious thing. 

Picture it, 2012 - I was self employed with a vanilla t-shirt business. I’d literally just retired from my 9-5 job as a Marketing Rep for a major media payroll company, to focus on my t-shirt business as it was growing. All of my bills were paid off, I’d funded my t-shirt business with cash from my vanilla job and my phone sex gig, and I had no debt so, I had the opportunity to further invest my time into my business fully. However, things didn’t quite turn out that way. Somehow things shifted, money that was coming in, was just as quickly being spent (not by me) and before I knew it, I needed cash and I needed it faster. 

A year after that, I ended up divorced and becoming a webcam model. Since then, I’ve been in the adult industry part time. It paid the bills and bought food when I needed it for my own family. My t-shirt business never recovered, and I needed to go back to the 9-5 life to help make ends meet and pay major bills. But I always stayed in the phone and webcam industry for extra money. I’ve dabbled into recording erotica audio for sale and creating solo content for passive sales. I also offered custom video and audio services. I’ve worked heavily with platforms like Niteflirt, MyFreePhoneSite, TalktoMe, ManyVids, Internetmodeling, MyFreeCams, Extra Lunch Money, LiveJasmin, and IMLive to name a bit more than a few.

Til this day, I still work part time in the industry, while maintaining my own talk site, and further exploring options on other new platforms. As an Ebony model, I do have the desire to be exclusive to a few sites, but earnings for me are limited, so limiting where I earn is equally critical for me. Over time, I’ve learned about exploring different platforms while noting which ones work best for me. It gives me the opportunity to focus on which ones earn me the most, so that I can cut the ones who don’t, and prevent burning myself out by splitting time and energy between one too many. If you’ve made it through this post thus far, you’ve probably already guessed my overall goal in producing this material. It’s to shed light on the industry authentically and educate anyone thinking of doing this. This isn’t to deter anyone from doing it. It’s to better prepare, so that success is achieved in the timeframe meant to be while maintaining a healthy lifestyle in its full form. So I hope you enjoy learning more about my journey while ultimately creating yours. Cheers to success! Now… .let’s get this fuckin party started, shall we?

I Just Tried Camming At Night

First of all, I’m a day time hoe. The freaks really do come out at night. Keep reading. No shade… all tea. By the end of this post, I’ll need to go paint myself into a clown emoji because the fuckery is laughable on my part at this point.

Okay ya’ll, so I just finished camming during the night ya’ll and I have to say… it’s interesting to say the least. It’s about 1 am est time right now. 

Yesterday was my 13 year webcameraversary on webcamodels.com. I decided to stream on this day to celebrate my anniversary with this platform. 

Boom, I look cute, finally dressed for the occasion and I get an invite to view a camera. Of course I’m thinking it’s a request to view a cam of a guy who is jerking off to me, which is my speciality and it wasn’t. It was a black guy (this "minor" detail is essential in this story, keep reading) who was fully dressed, smoking, drinking, and simply listening to old school music from the 70’s and 80’s. I immediately felt right at home, because I’ve been streaming almost everyday since my account with webcammodels.com has been revived and that’s the only music I’ve been playing. I’m thinking we’re going to vibe and treat this like some sort of episode of a TV show for adults like the good ole days, you know like the Robyn Byrd show? Vibing, drinking, smoking, laughing, and talking about sex, etc. I was totally game for something new. When I’m able, privates are always welcome. But this seemed different. 

My agent is usually easily accessible to me for assistance whenever I’m streaming, but yesterday was also his birthday so of course he was out celebrating despite him encouraging me to allow him to linger around and monitor my stream; I insisted he take the night off, venture out, and celebrate. I just knew I could handle this on my own. WRONG! 

The guy paid me to view his cam. He respected my tip list. I can totally appreciate that. But after a while, or should I say a couple of drinks later, he’s talking and expressing himself to me, including giving me his age, he was chatty no patty out this bitch. But he goes on to lightly complain about webcammodels.com, saying it’s one of the worst platforms he's been on out of many.  I sat there with my huge glass of wine and listened. I was intrigued to find out what exactly he meant by that. 

He goes on to say, he’s been in the web camming game since the late 80’s early 90’s. I thought, wow, this has been going on since the 80’s? That is interesting. He says, whenever he comes to webcammodels.com; he doesn’t have many favorites, in fact, he said he initially had just one favorite, and recently discovered another favorite, but now that he’s found me, he considers me to be a favorite too, and that’s very rare for him. His words. I caught myself feeling special because in this business, you want to be liked. Your money as a black performer no less, ultimately depends on how much your fans or potential fans will like you. If they can’t vibe with you, no matter what your niche is, they won’t come back. Now this doesn’t mean you have to take abuse as a black creator, it just means be personable, assertive, and witty. Know your worth and wear it with confidence. Your audience should feel your vibe and want to connect with you. Anyway, I sat there, continued to listen to him. I smiled, nodded my head, agreeing with his top picks, even though I had no idea of who he was talking about. He mentioned her name so much, I finally tuned in and saw she was actually streaming. I clicked on his number one fave to view her profile and fan her, she was of course a caucasian woman. I wasn’t surprised or disappointed. I have a lot of white fans and I absolutely love that. I am 1000% game for diversity. I’m here to simply point out the scarcity of appreciation for Ebony models. Let’s continue, shall we?

I clicked on his second fave to fan her also, she was a black model. I breathed a sigh of relief to see that she is in fact an Ebony model because I have not seen many Ebony models there. As an agent that is concerning to me because Ebony models deserve to have a platform to earn money and build fans on. Our presence or lack of further, is a red flag for more approvals on Ebony model applications. However, seeing the amount of Ebony models and fans alike last night, made me quite hopeful and I went on to vocalize the amount of Ebony models who were present and how proud I was to see them there. He agreed, other fans agreed. 

He kept going with complimenting me, expressing his appreciation for my energy and my beauty. He called me a star, said “You have star vibes, you're different". He said he's seen many Ebony models on the platform and none of them look quite like me. I was flattered. I’ll admit it. But I couldn’t help but to equally feel disheartened that he would even say something like that on this platform; in this industry. I kept thinking, why can’t we all just be our own unique selves, express ourselves sexually, and be free with our sexual speech. The industry is going through enough as it is with the new laws and crack downs on how adults express themselves. I don’t hear white men talk like this about their counterparts.

I suddenly zoned out from his talking when I looked down at my viewed list, to see how many viewers were in my room, and I noticed the black model he mentioned was his second favorite (his words) was also viewing my cam while she too was streaming. I immediately began to feel like they were a team or something, it was getting a bit weird. He was lowkey acting like a pimp. Nevertheless, I still smiled, pretended like I wasn’t bothered by this, and continued to speak her own success in my head passing it over to the universe.

So now the black male fan who’s cam I’m still viewing, continues with voicing his grievances about models and services these days. He says: "models don’t understand that fans are giving them their hard earn money from their actual paychecks that they get from their jobs." He said he doesn’t like models demanding that they be taken to private for shows, demanding to be paid for tit flashes, and shaking their asses on public cam. He said the models are not appreciative of the tips anymore, all they care about are private shows and back in his day, that was how models were paid. With sheer tips that’s it, that’s all. I said to myself: wow, he is not happy with today’s innovation.

I found this to be interesting and I couldn’t understand why he was talking about this in my stream because: 

• A. my topic said nothing about privates being welcome this time. I just wanted to celebrate; but I said self, don’t personalize his statement. 
• B. without privates, models would never make any money. Especially the Ebony models. And then I got to thinking, is he talking about Ebony models? Then I shook it off and said, nahhh… Don’t think like that Diana, stop separating black and white models. You can earn just as much money, just like them. Just win fans over with your charm.

So in hindsight, he basically said, webcammodels.com is too structured in a way that accommodates and protects the models hosting there to ensure we are paid for our time and artistic acts. Now I’m becoming a bit irritated and uncomfortable. But I go on to listen. I didn’t want to boot him out of the cam, because I didn’t want him to retaliate. Such a shame that I have to think this way in order to feel like I am protecting myself and my account. I’m thinking.. Just take it until one of us logs off. Ugh!

It gets worse, he didn’t stop there, he further goes on to brag about other sites being better because the women are showing important parts of their body off for free and doing far more for free and he doesn’t have to spend his money. And I thought, but you’re still here tipping. Okay. 

I want to point out one other site that is even more strict and 1000% exclusive to higher paying clients. That’s livejasmin. Livejasmin is one of my ultimate favorite platforms because they are the epitome of anti-freeloaders and johns who want a free show. They do not allow models to stream nude in public chat, let alone allow models to put on full free shows in public chat. Their site is one of high class and stature. They only want fans that can and love to spend.  Livejasmin only lost me because they began requiring models to have their photos professionally taken, and I’m talking even the profile SFW photos. I checked out and closed my account. However, I understood their end goal, and I’m super happy to know they’re still going strong and thriving. If I ever get a photographer, I would definitely go back there. The vibe, structure, and pay was amazing. I was always guaranteed a private whenever I logged on too. Livejasmin is VERY Ebony model friendly. 

Let’s move on… As he was talking I thought well if you think this site is bad, don’t go over to livejasmin.

He never took a breath, he went from complaining about webcammodels.com to giving me the 3rd degree, asking how long I’ve been a model on webcammodels.com. I replied with 13 years to the day, and he says he’s never seen me there. He was so lit, because he was basically calling me a liar about how long I’ve been there. I said, honey, you can go look on my profile, the fine print is there. Just because you haven’t seen me here, doesn’t mean I’ve never been here. I went away, life happens, and I took a break. He expressed understanding the circumstances, and then asked me if I was ever in the Ebony room on webcammodels.com. I said yes, I’ve been there. He didn’t believe me. He kept repeating that I have never been in that room. We did a bit of back and forth for a while before I changed the subject. I’ll admit, I have to take responsibility for allowing such fuckery to continue on my stream knowing I have potential customers wanting to pay me to come up and look at them cum for me.

But, I was curious to see if this would eventually turn into a drunken party where everyone could truly participate and have a good time. I thought don’t be such a stiff, Diana. People bicker and get back on track all the time. Just go with it, have a good time, and be free.

Another fan tipped me look at their cam. I immediately clicked his cam to be viewed next to the black guy. 

Sidenote: on webcammodels.com, models and fans can view up to 4 cams in their streams. When I’m viewing cams, I tend to allow fans to remain on cam with me once they’ve paid me to view; until they turn their cameras off. The only time I turn their cameras off is when I’m being called into a private or I’m logging off all together. It’s a horrible practice, I know. My agent tells me all the time. He says don’t make them get too comfortable by keeping up with this practice. And he’s right. Because there are some who take advantage in a bad way. Like the guy I’m talking about in this post. For the record, I do it to be fair, so to have this clown come up to hi-jack and complain any way, when I and so many other Ebony models are pretty fair; is absolutely frustrating to no end. However, I take full responsibility and acknowledge my own fuckery in this shit show and not understanding how much I’m worth. I need to take a glimpse of my own advice and roll with it. I know I will have to change this way of thinking and shift it, because I’m pretty dope like so many other Ebony models. 

The new guy who came on the second cam, looked like he was caucasian. Very handsome young man. We smiled at each other, sent heart signals, blew kisses to each other while the black guy was in his top corner of my screen still listening to music, drinking, and vibing in a world of his own. 

Me and the cute caucasian guy are vibing, he slowly brings his camera down to his pants where I see his bulge. I go on to tease him. He starts taking his cock out, stroking it. My mouth is watering, tongue hanging out. All the while, my attention is in between the two guys. A practice I also do to make them equally feel important, while entertaining my viewers; but the black guy started seemingly getting belligerent. I go on to entertain the guy whipping his dick out and as I’m standing up to do a minor twerk for the white guy, the black guy says:

“I was gonna say you need to get up and do something for him. You can’t just be sitting there doing nothing. He paid you to view his cam.” - again I laughed it off, but now my teeth are gritting from being more irritated. The cost to view cams is .90 cents. Unlimited timing with me. This is the moment I should have banned his wanna be freeloading ass off my stream, but again, I wasn’t sure if he and the black model were together, so I kept it cool. But what I wanted to say to him was "I don’t have to get up and do a muthafuckin thing”.  This muthafucka was truly giving pimp vibes. I said to myself oh no, I need him to go.

Now, another feature with webcammodels.com if no one else knows this, there is a public group chat that everyone in that room has access to. Models and fans alike. So if someone talks in the public group chat everyone sees it and can react to it. If someone sends a random tip or a tip from someone’s tip list, everyone sees that in the public group chat. We can’t see private show requests from fans, but we can see when someone either a model or fan, accepts a private session request. Keep this part in mind for the next batch of fuckery this muthafucka did while talking all that shit. 

So now, at the point where he made that comment, I finally muted him. Still didn’t kick him off like a dumbass but I muted him. But here’s the kicker, the entire time he was talking, complaining, and being indignant, he was tipping quite a few white models for doing the very thing he was complaining about. Sitting there. Yes you’ve guessed it, sitting there, doing nothing. No performance for free. Every act they were requested to do, either involved them going into a private or being tipped for it. Even the slightest act. Make sense? No? You’re right, doesn’t quite make sense to me either. Let’s keep going with the story shall we? 

Recap, when people get tipped there, members can either tip from the menu list, or a random amount with or without a note. He’s tipping these women to “smile”, other tip menus set by models with messages like “you’re so beautiful”, “I love you”, “Stand up” to name a few. And these aren’t low costing tip requests, these tip requests are high. So this loud mouth stream hi-jacker was tipping the white models heavy amounts. Now one may ask, how did I know they are white models? Webcammodels.com has it where members can create avatars. They also have default avatars, so if there’s a white couple, their avatar is of a white man and a white woman. If there’s a black member, their avatar is of a single black member. Same for a single white members. 

After a while I got to thinking, I allowed this guy to hi-jack my entire stream on my 13 year webcamerversary. Eventually the white guy cut his cam off. As a matter of fact, he cut his cam off the moment that asshole made the comment about me getting up to do something. I don’t think that sat well with the younger guy. So this black dude totally hi-jacked my stream for the whole hour and a half I was there. I realized he was name dropping the white model the whole time, talking shit about the platform, badgering me about my experience and so on. My favorite was when he kept what felt like; trying to little girl me like I had no idea what I was doing or no idea about how this all works. While calling me a star and steady looking mesmerized by my sheer existence. Of course other fans stepped in to tip me and give me five star ratings. I love them all so much. 

The black guy is continuing to try and talk to me, but I guess he hadn’t realized that I muted him so I couldn’t hear a word he was saying. He’s dancing, and he starts taking his clothes off to finally start stroking his meat. It was then, I finally decided to end my stream and kick everyone off. He had finally succeeded in turning me completely off. 

Now... here are my actual thoughts on the matter. I’ve said this before and I’ll say it again. Fans have this alarming sense of entitlement with models, especially Ebony models. I sat there and listened to this guy talk about his distaste for models wanting to earn a living by putting themselves out there for everyone to see, while equally tipping caucasian models large amounts to do absolutely nothing special. I heard him talk about being able to see models for free on other platforms, while he was hyping up the caucasian models by tipping them and name dropping for the chat. The one black model he acknowledged aside from me, all she got were 5 star ratings. I don’t know how long she’d been streaming online that night, but the time I was there, I didn’t see anyone tipping her. He tipped mostly white women and me (so much for only having one favorite for a while. Seemed like he had quite a handful that night). For the record, I am grateful that he tipped me. It wasn’t much. But I know I “have” to be grateful for the little bit he did tip me. And I am. I truly am. But I am mad as hell at fans that continuously tell Ebony models to give it all away for free with the hopes of getting a large tip. I’ve seen Ebony models have a goal of just $50 dollars; fifty fucking dollars and only receiving 5 dollars after streaming online for many hours, twerking, engaging, hyping up a crowd, fucking a dildo with their pussy and ass, doing magic tricks with their cooch, squirting to entice a crowd and be liked, all for FREE in live public chat for NOTHING. Zero coins, nada, zilch. Just to be told they’re not allowed to ask for privates or tips? It’s…infuriating… How dare anyone think it’s okay to abuse Ebony models and shame us for wanting to make a living out of doing a hard ass job. This job is very hard and mentally taxing and we DON’T complain. We don’t beg for spare change, we can’t even talk about the mistreatment without certain people either getting offended and/or trying to compete with us about our struggle, let alone have the room to complain about it.. How the hell are you competing with the struggle of Ebony models never seeing thousands of dollars in their bank accounts for this line of work but YOU DO. No one should ever try to even compete with our struggle and what we deal with. We still ultimately outperform and deserve to be accommodated. No one should ever tell us to sell ourselves short. Ain’t no way in hell I’m spending hours upon hours online to earn NOTHING. If I can’t be respected and accommodated for what I’m already doing, which is dancing, engaging, looking at cams, talking, playing with my cooch, I shouldn’t be doing that for hours and receive nothing because some douchebag believes that I should be doing it for free. Anyone can feel how they want about this specific topic, but as long as it’s going to keep happening to us, I’m NOT going to stop addressing it. This freeloading behavior with Ebony models is worn and TIRED.

This IS a real job. This is art. You pay actors for the movies they play in right? You pay music artists for the music they’re producing right? Movies, shows, and music are all things we enjoy. Just so happens some people also enjoy porn and the people who perform sexual acts, whether with a partner, solo, in person, or virtually, it’s all still art, expression, and performance. IT SHOULD NOT BE FREE. Teasers are free. Short ordinary trailer videos for movies and shows to entice fans are free. Actors get paid an appearance fee to interact with fans don’t they? Singers and performers get paid to perform at a concert right? And no one has a muthafuckin problem with paying for it even if there are no refunds and the artist either SUCKED on stage, didn’t show up, or canceled. No one says a word, all crickets. So all of a sudden there’s smoke for the people who ask to be paid to help you cum? To watch you, engage with you, take orders from you, listen and read your twisted fantasies and kinky fetishes - you’re still riding on that service being for free? There’s a problem with Ebony women or any woman for that matter, asking to be taken into private shows so that they can give you their full attention? Because I’ll be clear, he never mentioned which models were “demanding” - (and I put that in parenthesis because he already gave attention seeking vibes) private shows. I made the safe assumption that he was indeed complaining about Ebony models because he was legit tipping the caucasian models for everyone to see. It was truly a slap in the face. 

Let’s be clear here, work is work. Some people like working vanilla jobs. Other’s like to be an artist, doesn’t fucking matter how that looks. It’s someone’s energy, their vibes, and their emotional passion that they are putting into taking the time to entertain your wannabe freeloading clown ass. So get with the program and stop being so fucking cheap and entitled. Pay the artist like you would pay any other artist. 

And I really fucking wish platforms would stop giving these assholes all this free space to make statements like that. Nevertheless, if you’re on a platform that requires you to pay the model, obviously you want the attention of that specific model and you definitely should pay them for their time and energy. Especially if they’re black and doing magic tricks to go above and beyond, providing you a great ass show. Pay them! End. Of. Story.

Now back to my regularly scheduled fucking programming. I logged back on two hours later, and it was all good vibes again. I really enjoyed it after that asshole left. Stay tuned for more stories to share.